Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Haters

I don't think it is a secret.

I have haters.

I know who most are...even if they think they hide.

I will admit, my skin is not as thick as I would like people to think.

It hurts when hurtful things are said or thought about me.

There are a handful of people who know everything about me...actually three....and so as far as I am concerned they are the only ones who can judge.

I may seem worldly (I am) and sarcastic ( I am) and fierce ( I am)

But....

I have also hid in a closet hoping he did not find me and hit me
Been hit, hurt, broken
Questioned if I was ever loved 
Cried myself to sleep wondering why I was so awful
Numbed every hurt feeling with drugs
Cried to my Heavenly Father in a jail cell
Redeemed myself

So until you truly know me....remember that this is a blog. A blog where I am mostly frivolous and silly.

And as you go to talk to your friend about me or post a hateful comment you should know...

I have a heart just like you.

6 comments:

communikate. said...

Damn the man.

Haters gonna hate. Just go on and let them suck and be miserable. That's what I'm going to tell myself anyhow.

And, I don't know you, but the fact that you have risen above something hard tells me a whole lot of awesome things about you.

Keep on keepin on. :)

{B} said...

You don't know me....but that doesn't mean i'm a creeper ;) I found your blog and followed it ever since because I find you real and funny and a bit eccentric, even silly. ;) If someone hates, they don't have to read. :) -Brie

aubry. said...

amen.

Yakovich said...

Jen, I read what that mean person said. I LOVE THIS POST!!! So many times people Judge and have no idea what's on the inside......
Here's a story I LOVE......
"How Clean is YOUR window"
A young couple moves into a new neighborhood. The next morning while they are eating breakfast, the young woman sees her neighbor hanging the wash outside. "That laundry is not very clean" She said. "She doesn't know how to wash correctly. Perhaps she needs better laundy soap. Her husband looked on, but remained silent. Every time her neighbor would hang her wash to dry, the young woman would make the same comments. Abount one month later, the young woman was surprised to see a Nice clean wash on the line and said to her husband: "Look, she has learned how to wash correctly. I wonder who taught her this."
The husband said, " I got up early this morning and Cleaned our windows."
And so it is with life.
What we see when watching others DEPENDS on the purity of the window thorught which we look.

Jen I don't know you personally but to me you are an amazing woman, mom, wife and bestie! There is not one doubt in my mind how much you love your husband.....maybe that person hasn't read the rest of your posts. Just remember that is ONE person and it doesn't matter what he thinks you know who you are and the love those people around you have for you.
Karen

Cydney M said...

Maybe you should make your blog private so the haters can hate somewhere else.

Kim Millard said...

I love who you are! Don't change!